halfblackboy-2nd life blogs

2011-03-08T06:55:00.000-08:00

感觉那么近但是却很遥远........
I believe i could reach there but i can't......so sad....
所有的感觉只好深埋在自己的内心里....
Just let it be..........
感觉会好一点....
My heart will be less aching...

AC, NC, AA and NA

2011-01-08T08:00:00.000-08:00

Train, Train, and Train.
再辛苦也要练习，再痛苦也要忍耐，
流了泪也不能让它白流。
没有身心疲惫的练习，是换不到喜悦的泪水。
LoL, what am i talking about?
你们当然不懂，
当时的你们是旁观者，现在的你们是当事者。
而我所述说的感觉是只有“当事者”才能够体会。
要努力啊，不然后悔的将会是你们.....
当然还要照顾身体啊，病了就不好.....
xD，我正在想我现在正在用什么身份再说这一番话，
“哎呀”兄弟? 训练员？朋友？还是局外人？
==，希望你们胜利了也不要忘了在你们背后扶持着你们的“局外人”......
拜托拜托，希望诸神也好，耶稣也好，阿拉也好，请祂们多多关照你们这一群“新丁”，
我希望你们能够获得胜利，我希望你们能够突破眼前的难关。
因为若不跨越眼前的那座山，就看不见山后的世外桃源。
痛苦是暂时，胜利是永恒。
咬紧牙关，挨过去。

[每日一题]
Should we apply suction or incised the snakebite wound to remove the venom in the blood?
[答案“改天”才揭晓]

For whom had LOST

2010-05-20T07:00:00.001-07:00

You may think that it is such a bored to live in such place...
You might think that is it a right decision that you going to make...
You might think that is HE/SHE is your ONE?
You may think that you are alone...
You may think that why are they dispel from you...
You may think that why are they dishonest to you...

but,

Did you ever think that it is a GIFT to live while you are alive?
Did you ever think that you are holding someone back if you don't made your decision? No matter good or bad, a true friends will be your savior or your friend-in-need ,so GO AHEAD!
Did you ever think that how's HE/SHE think about you? There ain't 100% boyfriend/girlfriend but 50% couples(50+50=100 ^^)
Did you ever think that why you are alone? Take the first step, your true friend will hold your hand and walk until the day you lied beneath the earth
Did you ever think that what had you did? A misunderstanding? Unforgivable fault? Go ahead, and tell them how you feel? it won't hurt, I DARE YOU!
Did you ever think that you had dishonest to them? You said "why are they dishonest to you?" You disbelief your friend, why do they trust you? Rome isn't built in a day, but Hiroshima destroyed in a second (Hard to built, easy to break)

Are u wake up?
*Knock, knock

{take a deep breath, open your eyes , move your fingers, swing your foot}
If you can do all the instructions, congratulation!
You are healthy and you are lucky!
Tell yourself that you still can take a deep breath in this world, you are perfect and
you won't going to waste any time from now on!
Love your friends, appreciate their sincerity, help them while they needed, be the person who support them while you are still alive...
Tomorrow is too late...
Do it TODAY!

2010 Targets （文言文）

2010-04-20T07:53:00.000-07:00

1. 抱得美人归（私人事也）
2.届周年际，突破五位数也（圣约翰事也）
3.举内营及赛也（圣约翰事也）
4.满江红！（学业事也）
5.和和气气，万象更新！（圣约翰事也）

搞掂YEAH!

WTH , are we out of our mind?

2010-04-15T07:17:00.000-07:00

OMG....
Am i too free?
Why do i care?
Do i really want to help?
Do they really need my help?

Yes, i do!

I'm free
I do care
I really want to help!
And they also need my help ( i think so...)

p/s: to the person who think i LC to him,
I know what's your situation
I had been through your situation
I know what kind of feelings is it
So....
I want to help you
i do really want to help you
"love" isn't a big deal in our life!
come on, make up your mind!
The best is always right at the corner
so don't give up!
and
Do not let the feeling bring you down!
Cheer up!
Being mad isn't a good way to relief your stress
Be nice to the others
and you'll be treated nicely

My bet !

2010-01-07T05:11:00.000-08:00

I'm so busy busy and busy~
I need some time to settle those things off
by the way,
this is the 1st time that i need to bet on my luck
this result will either guide me to my ambition(my determined future job) or
my different future(???)
Just wait for 1 more month,
and everything will be decided

真正的道歉（或是迟来的道歉）

2009-11-29T22:42:00.000-08:00

我不能说我完全没有喜欢过你，
也不能够欺骗大家说那“六年”是假的。
但是如果这样如果因这而造成了你的困扰，
我很抱歉，我向你说“对不起”。
为了表示我的诚意，我已经删掉
"YOU REALLY PISSED ME OFF"的post了
我不知道即使我说了这么多，
你还会不会像以前那样的能够跟你轻轻松松地对谈，
但是我也希望各位"朋友”，
能够停止再散播谣言。
从今天2009年11月30日下午2时55分起，
结束长达几乎7年的暗恋
只是与"你"当朋友
一言既出，驷马难追！
我希望能够挽会当初只是朋友的美好^^

好歌推荐 ^^

2009-11-19T04:18:00.000-08:00

刚刚听了一首我认为挺不错的歌：暗恋
这一首歌是陶喆演唱的（不是Z-Chen ==")
只是其中一段我觉得很有意思的歌词：
~告诉自己要冷静
却又无法不想你
我的懦弱已经开始让我讨厌我自己
是你对我有戒心
还是我没有信心
可是谁也不能阻止我
我要暗恋你~

*在此澄清:上述歌词确是出自歌曲,并非本人想法...=="

Few TARGET I want to archieve in this holiday

2009-10-27T06:46:00.000-07:00

1.) Find a job
2.) Buy a Trend Micro Internet Security 2009 Pro (with my "salary")
3.) Organize a trip to A'Famosa (St.John)

4.) Say sorry to HTM (guess he knew what i had did, let me know if u had watch this,nudge also can)
5.) Convince my parents to upgrade our computer to 2GB RAM and install a graphic card
6.) Complete the"proposal" with KKJ
7.) Increase my height at least 5cm (I knew it is quite hilarious, so what?This is my target also!)

Well then, i think THIS IS IT!
GO GO H.B.B!!!

A Confession

2009-08-10T08:07:00.000-07:00

i think i cannot keep on this "tight" situation....
i really sicked of it already.....
i apologizes for what i have i did that made u all felt "bad"...
but 1 thing,
i won't change my attitude,
this is the way i am going to treat them,
as long as they din complaint ,
i will continue to use my way to "communicate" with them.
As an example, let's talk about the last time's situation.
Most of people ask me why i so angry and scold "1 of them",
i din gave any explanation ,
because it is very obvious,
if 1 person wrong, why dun we let other people knew what he did wrong?
but u said u want to save the numbers ,
means u don't want quality.
Eventually, i know that after i had typed this "article" ,i sure will receive some sort of "complaint"and "bla bla bla....etc"
but.........
i hope u can imagine that if i din do that ,
what will others think......
weak?timid?blind?deaf?
sorry, i have to tell them this,
i am neither 1 of it.
1 person wrong, the others have the right to know what he did wrong
and he/she should pay for what he had did wrong.

CONCLUSION, i won't change my attitude....

To those who did not attend for the last meeting....

2009-07-21T03:59:00.000-07:00

WARNING!WARNING!WARNING!....etc
To those honorable St. John members of Perimbun division KSS07/14 ,
please come for Saturday (25-7-2009) meeting,
your attendance is our pleasure.

The activities that may carry out on that day:
*secret
*private and confidential

To get more information about the activities that may carry out,
u must attend on that day, then u will only know

here are some pics from the last activities that had carried out:

All take photo together!!
Teacher was surrounded!!!LoLz!

Little report of today(鱼到爆！！！！)

2009-06-24T03:54:00.000-07:00

从来没有这么“鱼”过....
sorry for keep u all standing under the hot sun,
well, honestly.....
I SUCKS!!
NEVER TRAIN COMMAND BEFORE, AND THAT WHAT I SHOULD DESERVE DE LO....
summore, never tried "NG" SO MANY TIMES.....
here is some simple conclusion for today:
1.command is not clear
2.“带衰” other people
3.activity is very interesting, everybody seems very enjoy it
4.got 3 "people" flee already
5.the "MCM"(most cham member) OF TODAY IS SERENA,CONGRATZ
reason:they force she to dance with me.......zzzz
summore,she escaped alrdy....lolz
Overall: quite enjoying for our new batch AJK and members too...^^
Rate : 75%
Advice : practice before you do it(say to own)
plan before you execute(just an advice,take it easy)

tough week.....

2009-06-07T23:06:00.000-07:00

a week of holidays passed......
well, i din do anything yet(include homework)
but it won't last long, i gonna study hard in these few days..
study what? PRIVATE AND CONFIDENTIAL
awwww,so many things in my mind,i just cannot get rid of it......
hope i could find a place to rest my head.

天有不测风云...
刹那间，好好的一个人忽然从你身边....消失了..
你会怎么办？

TODAY SO DAMN TERRIBLY SAD!!!!!!

2009-05-19T05:17:00.000-07:00

so shame on me.....
omg,i cried at school..
#%#@$%#.....
it is the 1st time i cried at SMK perimbun.......my virgin cry(lolz)
well..
scolded by a woman...
i dunnoe y she want to scold me like shit,like i not deserve to live in this world..
holy $#!T!!!!
but...haizzz
actually i also gt wrong,i shudn't make noise while staying at the class
when other class having exam.....==
BTW, she said i STARE AT the GUMMY ,CUTE,BLOODY FAT teacher..
WTH!!!!actually,i'm just looking at her and keep nod my head only ma....
then she say i very arrogant.......haizzzzz
at the moment,my brain is blanked....i couldn't think anything..after few seconds.....
in my mind : WTH r u talking about??!?!!am i gt so ACTION while teacher scolded at me?????oh man,if really like dat,then today i sure GANTUNG by the teacher already...OMG,as a teacher also cannot think common sensely,then u straight away SHOOT me ,PWNED me........
that is the MOST "meaningful day" TO ME!!!!HURRAY!!!
==" :hope this thing won't happen twice.....

DAMN SAD!!!

2009-05-18T00:01:00.000-07:00

@!#$@%^$!%....
All the teachers suddenly became so aggressive ! and then all the students of my class all kena "SHOOT" by the chubby,cute,bloody and responsible teacher (about her name,i dunnoe...==") well......the reasons we all scolded by the teacher is because we are too NOISY..
but haizzzzz, how come she dunnoe dat even a student can also be stressed, so we need to make some noise to let the "bad mood" from our body release through our mouth ma.... thats y we making noise!!!
summore,our "responsible " monitor was also scolded by the teacher too and i saw him cried too.... what a pity fellow....sad for him haizzzz,tomolo sure GG by those others teachers de la........ thats all for today.......(sad ending..)

blog updated!!!!!!!

2009-05-16T03:57:00.000-07:00

THANK YOU TO MY DEAR FRIEND =======>CCK OR CK DESIGN
finally,he is willing to help me to update my bloggg!!!
thank you my friend!!!!!!

写爽的!!!!

2009-04-07T05:49:00.000-07:00

study is ok ok only
but i have spirit to study to know everything that i can see in my life

my friends are ok ok only
but they never leave me behind ,they grab my hand and continue the journey TOGETHER!!!!

my family are ok ok only
but we are enjoy the time being together in a small home(well,sometimes not...lolz)
LIFE IS ENJOYABLE,SHARE YOUR JOY WITH YOUR FAMILY AND OUR FRIENDS!
CHERISH YOUR LIFE,LIFE IS IRREVERSIBLE

a NEW life in 2009

2009-04-02T04:55:00.000-07:00

it is a whole new year to me!!!!!!
life never being so fun be4 like this!
well,i have done several things:
>>joined a compsquad(competition squad)
>>won 2 categories in the competition(1 gold in foot drill,1 silver in long case)
>>having fun with seniors all the night,UNSTOPPABLE!!!!
>>and get bald(B.A.L.D)
>>SLEEPING AT SENIORS HOUSE(lOlZ)

well,i also done "something" too:
>>having argue with my best friend
>>having argue with my family because of some misunderstanding
>>becoming lazy and more lazy.......zzz
>>becoming more aggressive(puberty)
>>1st time nude in front of seniors.......haha with my friends of course

My life isn't bored at all and it will getting better and better
CHEER UP!!!!

~坚强的她~

2008-08-22T09:14:00.000-07:00

她走了，留下了懵懂不知的我在她的背后................
发觉了，却还是与别人邂逅...............
她笑了, 却是我不在她身旁的时候............
知道了，我还是与别人忘我地邂逅............
终于她哭了，可是安慰她的人不是我............
我曾今想要接近她，可是往往做出决定的那一刻..........
我却只能望着她的背影，慢慢地离我远去.............
我不能阻止这一切发生，我只能眼睁睁地看着她.........
看着她那樱桃小嘴，令人脸红心如小鹿乱撞的水汪汪的大眼睛..............
她在开心聊着天............
哈哈哈哈，他俩聊着多开心...............
而我则在远方看着她迷人的笑容............
也许这也是一种幸福，一种自我安慰的幸福.............
我多渴望能够给她无数的欢乐，看她那不会腻的笑容.......
我想...........但是我不能.............
因为它的芳心已经被人收服了...............
她陶醉另一个他的美言，她宁愿为了他，放弃所有一切.........
朋友..........学业..........财富...........甚至是她的家庭.........
她永不后悔，她相信这就是她的真命天子..................
她毫不犹疑得跳下了这美丽的陷阱....................
终于，某一天...................她徘徊在我家的门口..................
她偶尔回头望一望，望着我家的窗口，希望着会有人忽然出现................
她惆怅的走着，她沉重的脚步渐渐的加快了...............
徘徊的频率，也增加了.........
最后她停下了脚步，望着窗口，然后走了...........
她的手抹走了脸上酝酿已久的泪珠子，鼓起气，再继续地走...........
走呀走呀，她的背影逐渐拉长...............
我终于忍不住了，我奔前去，拉着她的手..............
她忽然吓得愣住了.............
"你别走"我勉强地说出口..............
这时，她挣扎，试图想要挣脱我的手..............
我还是紧紧地抓着，因为我知道如果我放手了，我将会永远失去她...........
可是她跑了，我紧紧地跟随她.....................
她不见了，我失望得低着头，慢步走回家............
但是，我却隐约听见一个人哭的声音............是她
她的脸布满泪水，止也止不住................
她痛哭失声，为何会沦落到今天的地步................
此时，我看见了他脸上，手上和腿上明显的淤伤...............
她已经流露出她懊悔的表情.........................但是无可奈何，只能坦然接受.....................
后来，她似乎想通了................
他抹干了眼泪，对自己说
“我要努力坚强得生活下去，我要每天过得比每一天的昨天好！！！”
她表现出出乎意料之外的举动，她变了，她变得更坚强了..........
她又露出了失去已久的笑容了，再快步的走回家.....................
原来这么久了，似乎只有我一个人解不开心中的枷锁.............
好！！！从今以后，我要坚强的生活下去！！！！
我要过得比每一天的昨天好！！！！！！！

tired week~~

2008-08-20T04:44:00.000-07:00

hey,now is holiday WEEK?
y i din feel like i'm rest enough?!
oh man,i juz felt like much stress and "stresser"..........
it is a tough holiday to me and so others,ya.....(u noe who i'm mention?ya,u right,of coz is them,some of my friends[kah kit,TM director,CK designer,karen maniinu,elvy ong,Karen lover JIMMY,cool AFEEQ,handsome de man kit,brownish hair de hua xin,attractive de wei kang and PITIFUL PUI SZE)
this story we planning now is a bit boring,so i'm cannot stand for this..........
but for FRIENDSHIP,i rather doing anything and everything.....................
CHEER UP!!!!!!TECK MING,i noe u can make it the best(mayb gua)
and COMING SOON...........WE ARE THE BEST

Exam WEEK~argh......

2008-08-13T05:48:00.000-07:00

Here comes the SUFFER WEEK..........................EXAM WEEK
Perhap u all can score nice mark in EXAM
DO UR BEST,I know u all can do it...........
becoz u all are my friends..............

...............

2008-08-12T04:45:00.000-07:00

i have nothing to say........
perhaps u know wat am i going to say...........
my mind cannot stop thinking about you...........
every moment,every second...................
i am very annoying...........
i have lost..............
i don't want this happen to me......
i cannot stand for this............
i am not a tough guy as you think............
i am waiting for someone..........someone who i ever really want.........
XXX XXX,i am waiting for you.........................

i MISS A CHANCE~

2008-07-27T08:57:00.000-07:00

ARGH!!!!!
THAT DAY,I SUPPOSE TO HAVE CHANCE TAKE PHOTO WITH HER
BUT,ARGHH!!!!!
WHY I'M SO STUPID!!!! I'M SO IDIOT!!!
I SHOULD SEIZE THE OPPORTUNITY TO TAKE PHOTO WITH HER OR EVEN
S.H.A.K.E. HER H.A.N.D.

we are the champion~

2008-07-27T08:40:00.000-07:00

finally,we had won the champion.
by the way,我要在这里发表一些言论，那就是
我调，我再也不要演女的角色了！
（开玩笑的啦。。。其实我能够参演这次的戏剧表演，真的是要谢谢我们的导演咯。）
for those who nt well in chinese,i will try to translate what i'm write......
"by the way,i'm wan to publish some opinion that...........
DAMN IT!!!i dun wan to become'actress' anymore!!!(it's juz joke only la............actually i can join in this performance,i muz really really say thank you to our director 'HAMSAP MING'!!!

the most "beautiful" moment in my life~

2008-07-27T08:33:00.000-07:00

I bet that u never saw a gurl that so "beautiful in ur life
*vomit....................
(if the person who saw my pic and feel very uncomfortable,plz forgive me who post the pic and dun forget to wite some comment,k?)
*those who are under 13,plz watch this pic with ur parents permission.